Monday, January 30, 2012

I never thought I would miss Salma Hayek in my bedroom.

OK... Jerry has had Salma Hayek pictures up in the bedroom as long as I have been around. He took them down. I kind of miss her watching over us while we are sleeping. And, maybe I kind of wanted to go nanner-nanner, he's mine. He also took down the huge Mad Max poster. It had large images of Both Mel and Tina. But, Mel is still hanging on the wall in a smaller picture.

It all stemmed from working on our kitchen. we are having to do a little remodeling. I am trying not to run off with the project. I want to make sure it looks like a family house. Not, a girly house. Ugh...


And, my "enter" key is giving me fits.


 I watched "Armageddon," today. Again. I love the movie, even though I cry through the last 2/3 of it. My favorite aspect of the movie is the concept of redemption. And, how everyone received some form. My favorite is when the mom tells the boy, "That man isn't a salesman. He's your daddy." But, that is a blog for another day.


 It occured to me I am crying a lot. This is a good sign. I have always cried a lot. But, in the last few months, I couldn't hardly cry at all.


One of the hardest thing about having best friends is having to share them. It's also one of the greatest joys.


Finding the line between having the faith of a child, and NOT reacting like a child is a really hard thing to do.


Last little note, I am on several medications for various reasons. FYI, this might be TMI for some people. Some meds do some weird things to your body. My cholesterol meds make my urine stink. And, the iron pills make for sticky black poop. So, always use our guest bathroom.


And, you should check out my husbands blog.

Sunday, January 8, 2012


I have learned a lot of things this year. Small little bits of experience. I shall pass some on from time to time. Tonight, I shall pass on some of what I have learned as a waitress.

~ Always fill your sugar basket. You never know when company will stop by. Try to be prepared to at least have a drink to offer handy.

~ You know how you got to a restaurant, and you get that really cranky waitress. Take time to think that you do not know what your waitress has been through that day. Or, week. I know I had to have had some customers wondering what the heck is her deal. But, on the same note, when you are taking care of someone else, be mindful that you don't know what is going through their head. Whether you are serving them food, waiting behind them in line the store, driving in the car behind you, and so on. Oh! And, this goes for those overly perky people, too. You never know, they may be fighting back thinking about something that will make them very unhappy. And, if they are really that happy, shouldn't we admire it. Not be upset.

~ The way we treat others is often overheard by others. And, it does influence what people think about you. If you are pleasant at the table, and they hear you go to the back and yell ORDER instead of being considerate enough to take the time to walk to the cook and politely tell them you have an order, it will effect your tip.

~ By George, if there is something you see needs to be done, and you have the time, do it yourself. And, don't do it just so someone else will do it for you later. It's called being a grown-up. No one said doing the right thing is always easy or convenient. But, sometimes it really is.

~ Your actions effect other people. Sometimes, whether you like it or not.

That is all for now. Judge Dredd is calling.

Sunday Thoughts and Ramblings...

     I spent 15 hours in bed. We went to bed early, watching a movie. And, I refused to get out of bed for a while after sleeping late. I wanted to spend as much time lying in bed with Jerry as I could. I will not get to see him much this week. He works every night. Going in about the time I will get home. So, I hoarded him all to myself. and, I needed it. Well, we did. In that time, nothing else really matters much.

     Jerry actually enjoys his job.  But, the environment he works in, including the hours cause him a lot of stress. He has put in for a position in his IT department.  It would mean Monday to Friday from 8 to 5. Whether it came with a raise or not, it would be a vast improvement. And, would be far healthier for both of us.

     On the subject of health. Most of you know I am anemic. I go back soon to check my bloodwork again. Hopefully, I just need to adjust my diet. But, my luck sucks. I am also on the lowest available dosage of Paxil. I know the doctor will ask if he needs to I think it is helping enough. I really don't know. It has helped. But, I am not sure if I would benefit from more. I took this dosage before, and the only side effect we noticed was that I bruise really easy. I am doing it this time, too. I have a feeling the anemia is making it worse. I am feeling signifigantly better than I was. The question is, will more medicine, for a time, help or am I at a point where it is up to me to make myself better. I think I am going to wait to see what we find out about the anemia before I make that call. There are a lot of things that cause anemia that I may need some help dealing with. Sigh... it's a good thing we can't afford for me to drink much. I can so see how alcohalism comes out of these situations.

Here is an example of a bruise. 
(Who the heck can bruise that part of their leg? Me, I guess.)

     One more subject, then off to do some dishes and laundry.

     Ty performed in the talent show Thursday night. I got to take him to practice that afternoon. Come to find out, he would be the first to perform. He did a great job of manning up. I was so proud. Sarah's friend Baylee was sitting in front of us. Ty had already told me that if he got nervous, he would pretend it was just him and Sarah. He had the song on his iPod. And, they will let you sing with one earbud in. He did great.

     After he performed, Baylee turned around to tell us that it felt like Sarah was there with us watching her little brother, and she would be so proud. That is when I became keenly aware that the seat next to me was vacant.

One of the last to perform was Molly playing a medley on her fiddle. She did beautifully. I had enjoyed the entire evening. Then my feet came out from under me, so to speak. She began to play Amazing Grace. The last time I heard THAT song in THAT room was at the funeral. I began sobbing. Then I realized that the empty seat next to me was #14. She was 14 when she died. and, then I realized I was about 2 seats down from where I sat at the funeral. I managed to get myself together before the lights came back  up. But, it reminded me that I will have 7 more years of events in the auditorium. And, everytime, I will think if her funeral. Which really sucks, because that is where Ty will graduate. I feel close to her there, too.

     Ty was always overshadowed by Sarah. And, sadly, I think he will for a good while. But, he is also getting to cut his own path that will not be compared to a sister who was such a strong personality. But, I see more of her in him everyday. And, I with that, I see more of me. It makes me so very proud to call him my son.

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Just a thought...

There are somedays that I wonder how many people have never experienced the word, conviction.