It has been one month today. I am torn between feeling like an eternity and just yesterday. In a lot of ways, I think I am coming out of this a better person. I can see her smiling at me. Telling me to get off my butt and do what needs to get done. (Apparently when you child's memory is talking to you, they this is part of the reason that I want to have children with him. He missed out on a lot of father and child moments as a child. The idea of him missing out on the father aspect also, well, it breaks my heart.
On another note, I may have lost my mind. I have accepted a job at Radio shack as merchandiser. I am looking forward to it. I don't have to deal with sales. The part I am dreading is that it is 30-40 hours a week. But, I figure busy will be good. And, we need the money. I am still going to work at the restaurant and the sewing/crafting. oh! And, I am also paid for keeping the nursery at church on Sunday mornings. That makes 4 jobs. Oh joy...
I have more ornaments to make. So, off I go. Until next time.
I am a woman trying to find her place in this world. I have an awesome son. And, I am married to someone who is as perfect for me as someone can be. We are still mourning the loss of my daughter. We are working through it. We are still trying to find happiness in the grief. It is there. I want to help others find it with us.
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There's a Dr in Haltom that does tubal reversals. It's about 8-9 thousand. :)
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